Random Blog Post #319103

March 18-19

So last night( this morning) at around 2:50:AM I decide to take a shower after cleaning up my house. All the sweeping, mopping, and rearranging of things just made me feel dirty. I had started "cleaning" at about 12 AM and finished then,mind you the whole purpose of me cleaning was to find my wallet which I couldn't find since the previous day. I knew my wallet had to be in my house because I had just  did some online shopping on Crucial.com that previous day, YEAHH! for 16GB of RAM for $120 (Vrroooom) goes my Macbook Pro. But I digress from my story, I was cleaning I found my wallet under my bed which I had looked probably 13 times prior, (because that where things usually end up when they are missing). but since now my room was in an uproar OF COURSE I had to clean it. (smh)

ANYWAY! all the way back to the beginning, (well end). I'm getting in the shower 2:50 AM also noticed that my internet wasn't working at this point which had cut off "Seven Pounds"right in the middle where he starts to actually talk to Rosario Dawson. Another reason to just take a shower. So I text my mom and say to her "I think the cable is off", she sends a text back "Fuck!"and then continues to say can I pay it and she will give me the money in the morning otherwise she would have to write a check I said fine. and proceeded to get in the shower.

Down to my last "ends" I started to get depressed to my breaking point. Asking myself what did I do wrong? Asking a random spiritual being what did I do to deserve this life I lead? Why me?, and What am I supposed to do with my life now?. Low and behold "The GOD" broke down in tears and cried.


Cried my eyes out in Raw EMOTION for a period of approx. 13 minutes huffing, puffing, and basically gasping for air while tears drip down my face. I then stepped into the shower , and continued. I could not stop my eyes were puffy my mind was racing my heart was pounding through my chest, I'm gonna give myself a heart-attack I thought to myself. I need to calm down, I need to relax. Something is bound to happen for me, Im a good guy, I never do no wrong, or hurt anybody.



So I turn on the "Inspiration" Pandora station on my jailbroken iPhone 5 with the jailbroken app that allows for unlimited skips and downloads of pandora music. (Shhh! probably illegal) The first song i hear is I Got You(I Feel Good) by James Brown & The Famous Flames, instantly made me smile and dance in the shower.

March 19th 2013 (continued)

After which I wrote that tidbit of information above, and then went to sleep peacefully and relieved. I guess what they say is true crying makes you feel so much better. There were so many emotions and feelings in my head, and people that I hated and people that I loved and people i thought I loved all in my head at the same time. I just couldn't hold it anymore. Felt great waking up the next morning at 8 AM and remembered I had to call a man abut a job by 10, so I did. He wasn't in so I left a message with some Nigerian man. The man had sent me an email a night earlier and said call him at 10 about a job and he isn't in? This has got be a sick game I thought. So I go on with my day about an hour later I get a call back from the same number. Long story short I was offered an interview. We'll see how that goes tomorrow. I was kinda happy now a pep was put in to my step.

I then go out to get my haircut and get me some food by this time its about 4PM. To my surprise no calls, no texts, no emails nothing all day, found that odd but thought nothing of it. at around 5:30 I'm on my way home and I receive a mass inbox explosion of emails some junk MOSTLY junk but 4 emails weren't they were job invitations some from my resume on Craigslist and some from me sending out my resume. one left his number. So I called it. Again long story short have ANOTHER interview tomorrow. (YAY ME!) I go from no interviews to two in one day, and all these other people asking to meet with me… omg I'm so happy someone is finally listening to me someone prayed for me (thank you, whoever you are) I hope I get one or both of these jobs, would sure help me out a lot .

Sincerely,
~Ras